LIFE IS TOO SHORT

How many times a day, a week, a month do we hear this phrase...?? But do we really take the time to THINK about what it means. I know I don't sometimes. In the last month 3 people Hoku or I know have died. Just like that, gone. We mourn, we send sympathies to the families, we attend the funerals...and then what.?? we go back to our everyday. Our kids, our jobs, our hobbies...etc...We go back to taking things for granted. We get so caught up in the mundain, everyday things, that we forget how lucky we are. Any time, any day we could lose someone who means the world to us, we know this, but do we take the extra time to tell or show them how much they truly mean to us? Or is it easier to say " Oh i'll call them later, oh they know i love them...i'll just do this one thing and then go see them" and then we don't...

Today I am telling people I love just how much they mean to me. I will cherish all the time I can with my children.Who cares if my house is messy. Who cares if there's 5 loads of laundry to be done. I want to live. I will forgive. I will forget. I will apologize. I will love. I will live. I don't want to die and have the people I love wonder if I loved them. I don't want to lose someone without them knowing they meant the world to me. I don't want to live with regrets.

I think all of us could give a little more of ourselves. I know I am going to try harder to just live my life and not get so worked up about things that mean so little...It could all be gone tomorrow...

MY LITTLE GIRL IS 3!!!!

I can not believe its been 3 years since my little Aniston Ray was born. Life has gone non stop since then. But I couldn't ask for a better daughter. She is so helpful, sweet, answers "Alright Mom" to anything I ask her to do. Still wants to hold her "Baby Rycer", even though he weighs more than her and crushes her when he sits on her lap... :)

We had a party for her last Saturday with all of our friends. It was so beautiful outside and the kids had so much fun. She was so spoiled with all of her presents.She LOVED it!! We even got her a bike because she does so well on her tricycle, and is so athletic. It only took her 2 mins to get a hang of it. Then she was off. She took off down the sidewalk and was racing our friend Damon who's in a wheelchair. she was so proud of herself for beating him....

Here's just a few pics....(sorry bout the no shirt thing...she decided she was done wearing it..LOL)

JUST DO IT!!

I so hope I don't offend anyone (if anyone is even reading this), but I'm so irritated I can't stand it. Let's start at the beginning...

Hoku and I have been together for 4 1/2 years. Married for 9 mths, we have 2 kids, house, cars, dog....we've definitely had our ups and downs, and have been through more than most people do in 10 years. But our life is pretty good. We have everything we need. We are healthy and our kids are healthy. but there is one thing that is not so good. Hoku smokes...PLEASE don't get me wrong. I DO NOT judge anyone who smokes. Actually I didn't have a problem with it AT ALL, until my dad, my friend, my hero, died April 7th, 2007. It was an accident that could happen to anyone. It has left a hole in my soul and my life that can NEVER be replaced. Coming up on the second anniversary, I'm having a harder time dealing with it this year, more so than last year. So, dealing with all this, I can not understand how Hoku would do something that he knows can/will hurt him. I understand its an addiction, I understand it must be hard. But going through and seeing what I've gone through losing my dad, you would like it would motivate you to be the best, healthiest person you can for your family. Is it really worth it? really? Is it worth it to possibly leave your kids without a father? Is it worth it to leave your wife alone? Is it worth it to become so sick, life everyday would be suffering? I don't understand. Life is unpredictable. Anyone of us could die today from an accident, illness, etc. So why would you do something on PURPOSE that you KNOW can kill you. I just don't see the reasoning. I'm not saying just quit. But you have to make the decision to quit. Just do it!! make the decision, ask for help and support. It is going to be a process. But won't that be worth it? Don't all of us want as much time w/ the ones we love as we can?

I hope no one is hurt or offended. My only intentions were to vent (thank you) and to gain some understanding........